Just Show Up

Well I skipped a day. I'm allowed because I make the rules. On my blog anyway. As for all the other rules my wife would tell you I don't run shit. So yesterday….35…getting older. Had one of the greatest days I've ever had. Low stress, lots of love and hassle free. Started the day taking my little girl to see the new "Alvin and the Chipmunks" movie. You might be asking why I took my daughter to a movie on my birthday. The reason was that all I wanted for by birthday was to see all my girls and my little boy smile. Sure I want some material stuff but what I wanted more than anything was to see my favorite people happy. After the movie it was off to the merry go round at the mall. Nothing makes a four year old girl grin more than going up and down an a pony going in circles.

Make daughter smile - Check
After eating a quick lunch we dropped off the Princess and headed to the hospital to see my Big Man. He has been getting his daily bottle at 2. We were there for awhile with the PT nurse as we were feeding him. He is getting so big. Well big for a baby who was born 8 weeks early. As we were feeding him he gave me a few smiles. It was great. His eyes even close a little when he smiles big just like his daddy and sister.

See son smile - Check

We went back home for awhile and I took a walk. Just me and my thoughts. It was nice. It has become important for me to be alone sometimes. One of the hardest things for me to do is spend time with myself. I'm not talking about isolating. Just enjoying my own company. I used to always have to be around people. Had to be a part of the crowd. The irony is that I never felt more alone than when I was with a group of people. I think that is why I have a "thing" about being around to many people now. Sometimes I just feel crowded. Almost claustrophobic. So the walk was very nice.

Alone time - Check

We headed up to the Tram at about 4:30. It was nice, but it was too dark to see anything through the tinted windows. When we got to the top we had some coffee than headed back down. We made it to the restaurant at 7 where we met up with my sister and her girlfriend. The four of us had a very good time. I had an Antelope steak that was EFFIN PHENOMINAL!!! Good food, good time and great company.

Saw my girls grin -Check

After dinner we were planning on going to see "Avatar" but we had some time to waste so we went on a quest for dessert. No where sells cake. Well not the four places we stopped. At this point if we were to keep looking for cake we would have missed our movie. So we just headed to the theater. When we got there my sister and her girlfriend decided to join us. "Avatar" was an amazing movie. James Camron really reinvented cinema with this on. Visually stunning and imaginative. The movie lasted 2 ouhrs and 42 minutes. Best $10 dollars ive spent at the movies in years. We headed home very exhausted from a long day. And my wife was very happy that I had a great day.

Made wife smile -Check

Well I think the reason it was such a wonderful day was because I was there. I was present. I showed up. I seem to do so good when I make the effort to JUST SHOW UP. 'Nite Y'all.

"Hope begins in the dark; the stubborn hope that if you just show up and try to do the right thing,

the dawn will come. You wait and watch and work: you don't give up."
 Anne Lamott