Ch Ch Changes

I know I have been gone a while. Been busy procrastinating, with some work and school sprinkled in. the reason I am writing know is I saw an old friend today. Got me thinking about the direction my life is going now. This friend of mine was the best friend a person could have. He knew everything about me and I knew everything about him. Unfortunately, our friendship went south just as I was making these big changes in my life. As I was moving forward, he wanted to remain stagnant. So now the question is…am I better off without this person in my life.

 

We always thought we'd look back on our tears and laugh, but we never thought we'd look back on our laughter and cry

Henry David Thoreau

With a little help from my friends

"You won't lag behind, because you'll have the speed. You'll pass the whole gang and you'll soon take the lead. Wherever you fly, you'll be best of the best. Wherever you go, you will top all the rest." I have been blessed to have learned what I have learned. Sometimes I know more than others do and sometimes I ask for help. I have the intelligence that some would die for and to others I'm as dumb as a brick. What it all comes down to is how will I live this earthly plane? How will I be remembered? The only way I know how to greatly impact this world is to give all the love I am capable of giving and urge my kids to love too. So do something for someone. Call a friend or a family member and tell them you love them. Smile at a stranger and say hello. Hold the door open for someone. I am willing to bet it will make you feel better than it makes them feel. 'Nite Y'all.

 

"Without humility there can be no humanity"

John Buchan quotes

Mi Familia

"You'll be on your way up! You'll be seeing great sights! You'll join the high fliers who soar to high heights." I feel on top of the world today. Everything just feels right. I was joking with my wife that when I was younger and I told people that one day I was gonna have naked girls all over my house I wasn't expecting them to be Barbies, baby dolls and a four year old. But that is what I have. Another thing I have is a baby boy who just adds to the love I feel in my heart. There are no sights better than that of my family. And I owe it all to the most loving, beautiful, forgiving, wonderful woman in the world. My wife.

 

The family. We were a strange little band of characters trudging through life sharing diseases and toothpaste, coveting one another's desserts, hiding shampoo, borrowing money, locking each other out of our rooms, inflicting pain and kissing to heal it in the same instant, loving, laughing, defending, and trying to figure out the common thread that bound us all together.

~Erma Bombeck

I set out on a narrow way, many years ago

"Oh! The Places You'll Go!" When I first read this book, I couldn't even begin to imagine the places I would go. Now here I am, a little ragged from wear and tear. Two songs; one by Rascal Flatts called "Bless the Broken Road" and "Unanswered Prayers" by Garth Brooks. Both of these song remind me of the places I've been and how at time I hoped, dreamed and prayed for my life to take a turn for the better or for me to get something I thought I wanted. None of the stuff came to pass so that I could end up where I am now. I can't help but wonder what is next. 'Nite Y'all.

 

"Looking back you realize that a very special person passed briefly through your life- and it was you. It is not too late to find that person again."

Robert Brault

What’s Happening, Now.

"And when things start to happen, don't worry. Don't stew. Just go right along. You'll start happening too." Right now, it is getting hard not to stew in the situations I am having to deal with. My daughter has started acting up a lot since the arrival of the baby. The number of accidents has gone way up. She was having maybe one a month prior to this change in the family dynamic. Today she hit another little girl in the mouth for standing on a scarf. The thing that worries me is that there didn't seem to be an animosity or anger behind it. It seems like the hold attitude behind it is "that's how you are supposed to handle situations." Now I'm worried about where she picked this up. I've been going through my mind trying to figure out if it is something I watch or say… I just don't understand. This whole thing just frustrates me. But I guess I just need to let it go. What can I do about this RIGHT NOW? Tomorrow is another day. 'Nite Y'all.

 

"Breathe. Let go. And remind yourself that this very moment is the only one you know you have for sure."

Oprah Winfrey

Life with no Parole

"Out there things can happen and frequently do to people as brainy and footsy as you." Things do happen. Life happens. I guess that is really life's job, though. To happen. There all always so many things going on. School. Work. Kids. Wife……LIFE. Sometimes I feel like it is all too much. I soon realize why I am doing everything I do. It's because I have a life now. People always say stuff like, "A life outside of work" or "I need to get a life." Well you have one. Work is part of your life. You choose the job so make it count.

I know this post was kinda random and I am aware of this. Just putting off writing a paper. Time's Up. Back to my essay life.

 

Life is just a phase you're going through...you'll get over it

Unknown

Give it Up…

"And you may not find any you'll want to go down. In that case, of course, you'll head straight out of town. It's opener there in the wide open air." On my way to class this morning I saw an unopened bag of Oreos on the corner. They were just sitting there. You could tell that they were placed there, that they hadn't fallen out of a car. I started thinking about that bag of cookies and who they were for. In my head I could see a daily routine of a driver who passes, and sometimes stops, at that corner every day and gives change to the nameless guy that holds a card board sign saying, "Please, Help! Thanks" or "Trying to survive." I thought about how upset the Oreo gifter might have been this morning to not see the corner dweller out there. Did the driver think to themselves, "I hope he is okay."? Why was the cardboard sign guy out there in the first place? Was it a bad streak of luck or maybe he was just traveling? Well, I hope he gets his Oreos and I hope we can all give a little of ourselves every now and then. Thank you friendly driver and giver of Oreos.

 

You give but little when you give of your possessions. It is when you give of yourself that you truly give.

Kahlil Gibran

Ease on down the road

"You'll look up and down streets. Look'em over with care. About some you will say, "I don't choose to go there." With your head full of brains and your shoes full of feet, you're too smart to go down a not-so-good street." I have definitely been down some not so good streets. Latly those streets have been a lot more mental. Ive been hanging out in some dark alley ways in my mind. Negative thoughts just start to drag me down lately. I might just be wearing myself out. Going to school full time (even after dropping a class) and working 30-36 hours in four days is starting to take its toll on me. tonight was just a clusterf@#% of craziness. I think I might need to get a little more brainy and get my shoes full of feet to take me out of those Effed up situations. Well at least I am home now. I am still tired but I am not hungry, lonely or angry so I should be great in the morning. 'Nite Y'all.

 

"A man is what he thinks about all day long."

Ralph Waldo Emerson

No U-Turn, One Way, Northeast, Left

"You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself any direction you choose. You're on your own. And you know what you know. And YOU are the guy who'll decide where to go." Life can take you on many paths. If you would have told me twenty years ago my favorite thing to do would be to read "Wizard of OZ" or "The Mouse and the Motorcycle" to my daughter every night before bed I would have laughed in your face. The last thing I ever felt I would be was a family man. Now, it kills me to work all day and not see my family very much but everything I do now is for them. I know it sounds cliché but I want my kids to have all of the things I never had. So I am very happy with the direction I chose. I am a father, a husband, a brother that has picked a pretty good way to live. I try to always do the right thing. I try not to speak ill of anybody. But most importantly I strive for perfection in mind, body and soul every day. I know I will never reach perfection, but I am making progress. 'Nite Y'all.

 

"The reasonable man adapts himself to the world; the unreasonable one persists in trying to adapt the world to himself. Therefore all progress depends on the unreasonable man."

George Bernard Shaw

100

K.I.M. (Keep It Movin’)

"Congratulations! Today is your day. You're off to Great Places! You're off and away!" was in such a great mood all day today. Before class I read my favorite book, "oh, the places you'll go!" then I watched a YouTube video of it with John Lithgow reading, and then I watched a NFL segment with Harrison ford and some hall of fame football players reciting it. And I started thinking about what the book says to me. To me it says that no matter how good things get you still probably have some rough times ahead. But, its tells you how to get through those rough times. To me it says that no matter what happens if you just keep truckin you'll do all right….until you don't but then you just hold your head high till things get better. 'Nite Y'all.

 

Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after the other

Walter Elliot

Take a look, it’s in a book…..

Reading Rainbow. What a great show. I remember hating that it came on only once a day. I remember going into the school library to read the books I had seen on the show. I read to my daughter tonight. I've been reading to my daughter every night. Right now it is "The Mouse and the Motorcycle." It is wonderful seeing her get so interested in these stories. She gets into them as much as I do. Right now that is the only leisure reading I do. I am so glad she is gaining an appreciation for books. I run into so many people who don't read anything but status updates and text messages. LOLing and IDKing the English language to death. Don't get me wrong, I love technology. I would even call myself a technophile, but I have a great grasp of the English language. Don't judge me on the grammar of my blogs. These are written like I think and talk. You know I don't care if someone spends all there time on line or not, but they should try to take some time to read. You can get free digital copies of books everywhere. You can get tons of classics from google.com/books. I hope reading and writing books doesn't become a lost art form, blogs are great but there is something about losing yourself in a good story. Hope I wasn't all over the place too much tonight. 'Nite Y'all.

 

Every man who knows how to read has it in his power to magnify himself, to multiply the ways in which he exists, to make his life full, significant and interesting

Aldous Huxley

There's nothing you can do that can't be done

So yesterday I was asking for ideas for my blog and one of my fellow poets replied by saying "OMG I can't believe you ran out of ideas, lol! What's the matter, is the family out of town or something?" I thought this was funny, because sometimes I think that I might write about my family too much. But ive been thinking about this a lot today and maybe I write about them just enough. I write about things that matter to me and no one matters more than my family. One way I can change the world is by showing my love for them. I can show my son through my words and actions that a woman is to be respected. I can show my daughter through my words and action that she deserves respect. I can teach my kids about having a healthy, loving relationship by showing them how much I love their mother. I want to become a role model for my children so they know to look for these qualities in their sports/musical/TV/movie heroes. I know "Morals" mean different things to different people, but Love is Universal. 'Nite Y'all.

 

Love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love.

There's nothing you can do that can't be done.

Nothing you can sing that can't be sung.

Nothing you can say but you can learn how to play the game

It's easy.

There's nothing you can make that can't be made.

No one you can save that can't be saved.

Nothing you can do but you can learn how to be you

in time - It's easy.

 

All you need is love, all you need is love,

All you need is love, love, love is all you need.

Love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love.

All you need is love, all you need is love,

All you need is love, love, love is all you need.

-The Beatles

+word(-word)=

It takes no special talent to be hateful or tear someone down. Heck, I can do that without trying. Apparently I do this often. It seems that we as a people have this amazing ability to make others feel horrible. I find my environment so much more pleasant when I speak kindly of people. You can get a much more powerful response from the world by just saying something nice or working to stop negativity. Sure it takes a little work but the results will blow you away. Sometimes a little effort can change the world, or at least the little bubble of space we occupy in this world. I work with some people who will spent an entire shift saying negative things about procedure or guests or even about co-workers. I try to keep negativity away from me at work. Some people won't even say bad things around me anymore. Don't be fooled. I am just as guilty of this sometimes, but the difference is I don't like doing it. Sometimes I just get caught up in the moment. But every day I try to better myself and the world around me and maybe some others will catch on. 'Nite Y'all.

 

"From the backstabbing co-worker to the meddling sister-in-law, you are in charge of how you react to the people and events in your life. You can either give negativity power over your life or you can choose happiness instead. Take control and choose to focus on what is important in your life. Those who cannot live fully often become destroyers of life."

Anais Nin

It’s all your fault

So when I got off work earlier I was in the car and my daughter tells me she left her doll at a baby shower they were at today. I empathize and tell her sorry. She tells me, "you don't have to apologize, it wasn't your fault. I'm the one who left it there." My four year old took responsibility for what she did. Granted it doesn't happen all the time but it amazes me the she can do something more than half of the people ii work with can't do. Even me for that matter. Sometimes I just want to blame anyone or anything but myself. Thank you darling for showing me that it is so esay a four year old can do it. 'Nite y'all.

 

"You must take personal responsibility. You cannot change the circumstances, the seasons, or the wind, but you can change yourself. That is something you have charge of."

 Jim Rohn

Women! Get Up, Stand Up!

I am amazed at how violent people can be. Especially to women. What makes a man want to hurt a woman physically? Last night I heard some yelling while I was reading and when I looked out my window, I saw some guy pinning a girl down in the back of the car and she was screaming. I run downstairs and as I get outside the street side of starts to come out me. I haven't always been the nice guy I am now. I used to be a tough little street kid. That just made me sound like Oliver Twist or one of the kids from Newsies… anyway… I get down stairs and this guy as this girl from behind and is pulling her back and covering her mouth. I yell that he better EFFIN let go of or we were gonna have some issues. He let go, I helped her out of the street, and he took off. I just don't understand it. A few days ago, my wife stopped a different neighbor from beating a different girl. I know you must be thinking that I must live in some shitty area, but I really don't. This problem reaches beyond economic and social boundaries. How do we go about stopping this? I am glad my daughter will never have to deal with this, because she will be very confident and strong willed or because I'll just go buy a gun.

 

"It's not enough for women to speak out on the issue - for the message to be strong and consistent, women's voices must be backed up by men's."
--Rep. John Conyers, Jr., Michigan

U

Sorry I lied to you. It has taken me quite some time to post. School has been kickin my butt. So every morning I have my routine. One of the things I do is set up a playlist to listen to on the way to class. Today as I was listening to my song selection, I came across a song I haven't listened to in a long time. This song is by Arrested Development, one of my favorite groups. The song is called "U". I am now gonna post it with some changes.

Lonely, Lonely, Oh Woe Is Me
Oh Woe is me I say
The complex cycle i go through almost everyday
To my dismay, I imagine being in this set
Me holdin' the 21st letter in the alphabet
All my life I'd been searchin' as if it was my obligation
To find who?
U but my patience grows thin
'cause U are letter surrounded by a better image
Marriage takes disipline, 
A problem that exist within'
The American culture I resist against
But I must recall and I trust that all 
I've learned thru life is givin' way to my wife y'all
'cause I want, not need a companion to feed 
the knowledge I read and the lovin' I've received
Through moms and my pops read a long life
So hey I prayed for the day I have a strong wife
And a strong son or daughter or strong both
Give them a foundation of values 
I think I'll make a great coach for them
And warn 'em of sin and maybe by then they can nip it in the bud
Before it begins
So hey, if you're listening and yo wishin
For a U like me that you have in store
Maybe I could be the U for U
And U could be the U for me too

The Sun Shined

I have had a lot going on lately. So no time to write. Still don't have much time. Just wanted the post the poem I delivered at my G-ma's service yesterday and let you know what a blessing it is to know how many people love and support me in all I do.

 

 

The Sun Shined Again Today

Though My Heart Is Heavy

Sorrow Filling Me

Like Rain

Fills The Discarded Origami Cup

Abandoned After The Tea Party

Of Little Japanese Girls

Raised In Gated Communities

Protected By Guards, Guns

And Razorwire Sharper Than The Minds And Wits

That Make The Best Of A Bad Situation

The Sun Shined Again Today

And Remembrances

Run Around

Like Little Boys And Girls

Run Around Their Grandmother

Who Is Making Sukiyaki,

Washing Dishes

Or Slicing Cucumbers Paper Thin

To Soak In Rice Wine Vinegar

And Sugar

With Chunks Of Crab

That Were The Only Thing Imitation

Surrounding Her Life

The Sun Shined Again Today

And I Connect The Dots

Of Memories

And As They Link I Think

Of The Path That Flows

Through A Century Of Lineage

That Expands

From Sturdy Roots

Emerging Into A Tree

With Branches That Are Strong, Weak And Weathered

And Limbs Heavy With Fruit

The Sun Will Shine Again

Every Time The Story Is Told

Of A Woman We Will All

Remember With Gratitude

Able to leap in a single bound

I want superpowers. Flying, invisibility, x-ray vision, mind-control anything really. I would even settle for a fancy Batman utility belt. The question is how would I use my powers. Could I be trusted with them. I'd like to think I would use them for good, but I'm not so sure. There are so many selfish reasons I could find to abuse my powers. So if anyone hears about a two day trial on super-speed let me know.

 

A hero is a man who does what he can. 
Romain Rolland 

My Sweet Little Punk

It is very hard to control my temper sometimes. I just get so frustrated. My daughter can really test my patience and drive me crazy. Was I this bad when I was her age? She can go from zero to pain-in-the-ass in 2 seconds. I love her to death, but sometimes I want to pop her little head off her little neck. Than out of nowhere, just when you cannot take it anymore, she becomes the sweetest most thoughtful little girl in the world. 'Nite Y'all.

Fathers be good to your daughters. Daughters will love like you do. Girls become lovers, and turn into mothers. So, mothers be good to your daughters, too.

John Mayer

I’m a 10 watt bulb trying to get brighter

You never see Superman sitting around with Kryptonite in his hand. Why? Because it would kill him. He doesn't think to himself, "I really wish I had some Kryptonite, right now." So why is it that when I start to get overwhelmed with life, I start wanting something that will destroy my life. I am blessed that I have the support I need as well as a simple set of spiritual tools the help me.

 

"The ancestor of every action is a thought."

Ralph Waldo Emerson