Wealth-Malapert

I remember when I used to be a malapert individual. I can still be bold, but not in the destructive way I was before. I know I have said all this stuff over and over, but looking at these pictures we had taken today has reminded me how rich I truly am. It is not a material wealth, it is one that is worth so much more than all the cars, houses and "stuff" I used to think I wanted. It feels so good to be so truly happy and in love with my life and my family as I am right now. Blessed! Nite Y'all!

 

When you look at your life, the greatest happinesses are family happinesses.

~Joyce Brothers

Stand-Matriculate

I have an ill headache that is kinda crippling me right now. My head hurts so bad I can hardly stand. Gotta get up early. Seeing as how I've matriculated I now need to buy books. Financial aid becomes available tomorrow and I want to get there early so I'm not waiting on line forever. Nite Y'all!

 

"I thought so hard I got a headache."

J.D. Cobb

Withheld-Mugwump

Mugwump? How the hell am I supposed to use that? I'm not really stuck in the middle of any controversial issues. The last debatable issue I was undecided about was the nature nurture: alcoholism/addiction issue and I resolved my opinion on that. I do remain flexible on most things though. More-so than most I think. I think there is too much rigidity in some peoples beliefs. So much that they become bull-headed and refuse to see the possibility of anyone else's views. I think that if everyone gave more than they withheld in respect to compassion and empathy towards the ideas of others this world would spin a little easier. Nite Y'all!

"Compassion is sometimes the fatal capacity for feeling what it is like to live inside somebody else's skin. It is the knowledge that there can never really be any peace and joy for me until there is peace and joy finally for you too."

Frederick Buechner

Stride-Muliebrity

So today didn't go as badly as expected. I walked in and hit my stride right away. The majority of my tables were great. They were nice and happy and most of them were pretty fun. This mother's day went well. Hope you all called your mothers. Nothing says muliebrity like having a child. Thanx Moms. Nite Y'all.

 

God could not be everywhere and therefore he made mothers.

~Jewish Proverb

Trial-Chevron

I had a trial of sorts today. everything just seemed so wrong. Managers were giving conflicting directions, co-workers were being a pan in the ass and there were some guests that were being just awful. I was having a horrible day until my wife, daughter and son showed up and brought me a milk shake. I got a big hug form my little girl and a kiss from my wife and it turned my day around, until someone poked a hole in my milkshake cup. That just made things suck again. Tomorrow is gonna be a battle. Going into work on Mother's day is like going to war. I should just put stripes, stars and chevrons on my sleeves. Might even need to bring a helmet and a side arm. People! Listen! Pay Attention! Love your mother? Then don't make her sit in the lobby of a restaurant for 2 hours. Buy her some flowers and tell her you'll take her out whenever she wants. Oh well. Nite Y'all.

 

"If you realize what the real problem is - losing yourself - you realize that this itself is the ultimate trial."

Joseph Campbell

Lashes-Eristic

An eristic topic arose today out of a simple facebook post. I posted a status update with the theme song from "The Big Bang Theory" and it triggered a pretty turbulent situation. One friend continued the conversation along the lines of scientific thought and another chimed in with biblical revelations type talk and with comments from both sides of the debate lining me up for my hundred lashes. The beauty about beliefs is it helps direct people in a direction they feel is appropriate. There is no right or wrong answer, although I am sure quite a few might disagree. I have always had my own personal value system. I didn't always follow it but it was there. Now I try to live them. For me what it all boils down to is humility, forgiveness and acceptance. Nite Y'all.

 

 

"Above all, be true to yourself, and if you cannot put your heart in it, take yourself out of it."

-- Hardy D. Jackson

Depth-Perpend

I sit here and perpend the events of the evening. My daughter was telling my tonight that some kids at school call her names like "Jerk" and "Stupid". I think about the things that I have been called in my life: Nigger, Stupid, Liar, Cheater, Loser, Jerk, Drunk, Druggie, Asshole and so many others. At one point or another I deserved every name I was called and even now a few of those can be apropos from time to time (I realize I am not perfect), but now I am called by many names that are such a long way off from those others: Father, Husband, Brother, Friend, Man. It broke my heart hearing my daughter talking about these "mean things" they were calling her. I sat her down in front of me and told her that sometimes everyone acts like a jerk. As for being called stupid I asked her what she thought of herself, whether she was smart or stupid. She told me that she thought she was smart and I said that's all that matters. I asked her if all the kids at school thought she was stupid and she named off seven or eight that thought she was smart and then I asked her what she should do and she said "just play with the ones who think I'm smart." Amazing how someone who is just 5 can grasp a concept with such depth and help me realize a few things about myself in the process. Nite Y'all.

 

"Fear of a name increases fear of the thing itself."

J. K. Rowling

Roller-Vamoose

It is kinda funny that this new format that I'm using makes me think of captcha codes. Well today was the last day of the term for me and today was also my last final. I am pretty sure I did a good job on it. so that will be the third of my A's for the term. Got one B. it was in a four credit hour class. So my GPA for the term is gonna be about a 3.8 overall will be about a 3.92. I am still amazed at how far I've come. Sure I have had some/plenty/many ups and downs. I have fallen down a bunch but like they say in the roller skating movie Roll Bounce, "Hey, if you don't fall, how you gonna know what gettin' up is like, right?" well it is time for me to vamoose. Nite Y'all.

 

"If you're robbing a bank and you're pants fall down, I think it's okay to laugh and to let the hostages laugh too, because, come on, life is funny."

Jack Handy

Chained-Iatrogenic

I have been feeling quite untethered as of late. I remember feeling chained to insanity and selfishness. Now the only thing I feel tied to at all, other than my family, is humility. I have been through so much and come so far. It amazes me how little people really understand about addiction and alcoholism. Even doctors. I was once put in an iatrogenic situation when I hurt my back and the doctor prescribed me muscle relaxers and said it was okay because they were non-narcotic. Alcohol is non-narcotic and it had me fucked up, and I used to take muscle relaxers for fun. All that is over now. I'm not saying I am cured. I am far from it, but now I am aware and in the moment no matter the situation and that is that only way I'll win this battle. Nite Y'all.

 

A loser doesn't know what he'll do if he loses, but talks about what he'll do if he wins, and a winner doesn't talk about what he'll do if he wins, but knows what he'll do if he loses.

Eric Berne

Regardless-Jnana

Regardless of what you might have thought I did not disappear from this planet. I simply took some time to kind of reconnect with the stuff that was/is important. I have been undergoing a Jnana of sorts. There have been many times I had thought about writing, but I just couldn't figure out what to write about. So my new method is I take my oneword.com word and my dictionary.com word and include both into my daily bloggerization (I made that one up). They should be hyperlinked, but if they are not I am sure you brainiacs can figure it out. Hope you are all doing well. Hope to hear from you. Nite Y'all.

 

"We live in a moment of history where change is so speeded up that we begin to see the present only when it is already disappearing."

R. D. Laing

Bubble, bubble, toil and trouble

I am currently in the process of writng a paper for english. The subject is Nature vs. Nurture: Alcoholism. I am puting a lot of past experience into it and some old wounds are are being picked at. Some old resentments are starting to creep up. It is kind of scary. Thank God that i have God to help me through this. God grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change

These are the Droids you're looking for

Got a new phone this week. Its pretty nice. Running android os so ilove it cuz i love Google. This phone has made me think about my life. Just like technology i am advancing as well. I remember when all you could do with a mobile phone was to use it as a phone. Now there are additions that make them better. Now they really can accomplish anything.


Don't wait until everything is just

right. It will never be perfect. There will always be

challenges, obstacles and less than perfect

conditions. So what. Get started now. With each

step you take, you will grow stronger and

stronger, more and more skilled, more and more

self-confident and more and more successful.”

Mark Victor Hansen

Ch Ch Changes

I know I have been gone a while. Been busy procrastinating, with some work and school sprinkled in. the reason I am writing know is I saw an old friend today. Got me thinking about the direction my life is going now. This friend of mine was the best friend a person could have. He knew everything about me and I knew everything about him. Unfortunately, our friendship went south just as I was making these big changes in my life. As I was moving forward, he wanted to remain stagnant. So now the question is…am I better off without this person in my life.

 

We always thought we'd look back on our tears and laugh, but we never thought we'd look back on our laughter and cry

Henry David Thoreau

With a little help from my friends

"You won't lag behind, because you'll have the speed. You'll pass the whole gang and you'll soon take the lead. Wherever you fly, you'll be best of the best. Wherever you go, you will top all the rest." I have been blessed to have learned what I have learned. Sometimes I know more than others do and sometimes I ask for help. I have the intelligence that some would die for and to others I'm as dumb as a brick. What it all comes down to is how will I live this earthly plane? How will I be remembered? The only way I know how to greatly impact this world is to give all the love I am capable of giving and urge my kids to love too. So do something for someone. Call a friend or a family member and tell them you love them. Smile at a stranger and say hello. Hold the door open for someone. I am willing to bet it will make you feel better than it makes them feel. 'Nite Y'all.

 

"Without humility there can be no humanity"

John Buchan quotes

Mi Familia

"You'll be on your way up! You'll be seeing great sights! You'll join the high fliers who soar to high heights." I feel on top of the world today. Everything just feels right. I was joking with my wife that when I was younger and I told people that one day I was gonna have naked girls all over my house I wasn't expecting them to be Barbies, baby dolls and a four year old. But that is what I have. Another thing I have is a baby boy who just adds to the love I feel in my heart. There are no sights better than that of my family. And I owe it all to the most loving, beautiful, forgiving, wonderful woman in the world. My wife.

 

The family. We were a strange little band of characters trudging through life sharing diseases and toothpaste, coveting one another's desserts, hiding shampoo, borrowing money, locking each other out of our rooms, inflicting pain and kissing to heal it in the same instant, loving, laughing, defending, and trying to figure out the common thread that bound us all together.

~Erma Bombeck

I set out on a narrow way, many years ago

"Oh! The Places You'll Go!" When I first read this book, I couldn't even begin to imagine the places I would go. Now here I am, a little ragged from wear and tear. Two songs; one by Rascal Flatts called "Bless the Broken Road" and "Unanswered Prayers" by Garth Brooks. Both of these song remind me of the places I've been and how at time I hoped, dreamed and prayed for my life to take a turn for the better or for me to get something I thought I wanted. None of the stuff came to pass so that I could end up where I am now. I can't help but wonder what is next. 'Nite Y'all.

 

"Looking back you realize that a very special person passed briefly through your life- and it was you. It is not too late to find that person again."

Robert Brault

What’s Happening, Now.

"And when things start to happen, don't worry. Don't stew. Just go right along. You'll start happening too." Right now, it is getting hard not to stew in the situations I am having to deal with. My daughter has started acting up a lot since the arrival of the baby. The number of accidents has gone way up. She was having maybe one a month prior to this change in the family dynamic. Today she hit another little girl in the mouth for standing on a scarf. The thing that worries me is that there didn't seem to be an animosity or anger behind it. It seems like the hold attitude behind it is "that's how you are supposed to handle situations." Now I'm worried about where she picked this up. I've been going through my mind trying to figure out if it is something I watch or say… I just don't understand. This whole thing just frustrates me. But I guess I just need to let it go. What can I do about this RIGHT NOW? Tomorrow is another day. 'Nite Y'all.

 

"Breathe. Let go. And remind yourself that this very moment is the only one you know you have for sure."

Oprah Winfrey

Life with no Parole

"Out there things can happen and frequently do to people as brainy and footsy as you." Things do happen. Life happens. I guess that is really life's job, though. To happen. There all always so many things going on. School. Work. Kids. Wife……LIFE. Sometimes I feel like it is all too much. I soon realize why I am doing everything I do. It's because I have a life now. People always say stuff like, "A life outside of work" or "I need to get a life." Well you have one. Work is part of your life. You choose the job so make it count.

I know this post was kinda random and I am aware of this. Just putting off writing a paper. Time's Up. Back to my essay life.

 

Life is just a phase you're going through...you'll get over it

Unknown

Give it Up…

"And you may not find any you'll want to go down. In that case, of course, you'll head straight out of town. It's opener there in the wide open air." On my way to class this morning I saw an unopened bag of Oreos on the corner. They were just sitting there. You could tell that they were placed there, that they hadn't fallen out of a car. I started thinking about that bag of cookies and who they were for. In my head I could see a daily routine of a driver who passes, and sometimes stops, at that corner every day and gives change to the nameless guy that holds a card board sign saying, "Please, Help! Thanks" or "Trying to survive." I thought about how upset the Oreo gifter might have been this morning to not see the corner dweller out there. Did the driver think to themselves, "I hope he is okay."? Why was the cardboard sign guy out there in the first place? Was it a bad streak of luck or maybe he was just traveling? Well, I hope he gets his Oreos and I hope we can all give a little of ourselves every now and then. Thank you friendly driver and giver of Oreos.

 

You give but little when you give of your possessions. It is when you give of yourself that you truly give.

Kahlil Gibran

Ease on down the road

"You'll look up and down streets. Look'em over with care. About some you will say, "I don't choose to go there." With your head full of brains and your shoes full of feet, you're too smart to go down a not-so-good street." I have definitely been down some not so good streets. Latly those streets have been a lot more mental. Ive been hanging out in some dark alley ways in my mind. Negative thoughts just start to drag me down lately. I might just be wearing myself out. Going to school full time (even after dropping a class) and working 30-36 hours in four days is starting to take its toll on me. tonight was just a clusterf@#% of craziness. I think I might need to get a little more brainy and get my shoes full of feet to take me out of those Effed up situations. Well at least I am home now. I am still tired but I am not hungry, lonely or angry so I should be great in the morning. 'Nite Y'all.

 

"A man is what he thinks about all day long."

Ralph Waldo Emerson